Happy Birthday My Dear Friend

Just Like that

I was happy, elated in my bubble when I met him. A tall, handsome and charming person. One of the rare ones with a smile, kind heart, sense of humor and modesty.

It was my first day in college when he passed by. Never knew what ‘weak in knees’ meant; until that moment. It must be what love at first sight meant.

Wow; this encounter was helping me understand my bookish knowledge in true sense.

I was lost all day; amused at myself. I was giggling like a small kid, with spring in my feet.

Then I learned the meaning of my heart skipped a beat…..when he came to me and said ‘Hi’ and I ran without saying a word.

In my entire life, I have never encountered a voice as mesmerizing as his.

I knew I was in trouble and a deep one.

When I went home I locked myself up…talking and shouting at myself for being a fool. I was disappointed in the way I behaved today.

Blaming idiot movies for making me so dramatic; I looked in the mirror.

I knew I will have these feelings someday because I was sure about myself; in spite of what everyone said around me. I thought I was worth loving and I was surely falling in deep with this one.

Suddenly, a small voice in my head said; “what if he is not into you? What if he is not the one?”

Just like that, I realized that being different is makes your survival more difficult.

And just like that, with tears rolling down my eyes; I opened my diary and wrote; the one that I didn’t pursue because of fear, with his name in bold.

I went to sleep with all the thoughts still fresh in my mind

That night I dreamt of a world where acceptance was easy, a world where confession of your sexuality was not a taboo; where you are not beaten, tortured and cursed for being different and a world where ‘Love was love’.

P.S.: I have known people in the closet and once who make an effort to come out of it. Through my writing I am just portraying that love is the same for all, feelings are human nature and have nothing to do with sexuality. My intentions are pure and I hope that we live in a society where everyone is truly ‘free’