Random Thoughts

So, I have landed on the most dreadful letter in the alphabet, The ‘ X ’. Now l searched around the internet to get a word with X as I usually like to start my blog with the alphabet rather than using it in a sentence. So I went for in-depth research for a word that I can use. I wanted a word that falls in line with my theme and also with my style of blogging. I even consulted some of my amazing friends to help me see light at the end of this dark tunnel. But, we all landed up with one theory…we have words with X, but they may not be suitable with the series of blogs I am penning down. So after all the efforts, I decided to put my take on the letter X . Now, I found the various meaning of it as in: Using X or EX is the way to talk about your past relationship, the way to acknowledge that that phase has passed. We may or may not be over it, but for sure it is gone to not return. Then I came across a totally opposite way of using the letter; as in “ XOXO ” a coded way ...

With eager eyes, I glanced at the doorway. I was expecting a piece of good news in the mail. Maybe the postman got delayed. I looked at the clock and started pacing. Looking at the gate now and again. Suddenly, the bell rang…. I jumped in excitement as I rushed to open the door. It was like a K3G movie scene. Now I know how Jaya Bachchan ma’am must have felt when Rahul a. k. a. Shahrukh Khan came home. Anyway, I opened the gate and was overjoyed to receive the letter. The letter I was expecting since I dreamed of getting into this field. Proof that I have accomplished my dreams and my hard work has paid off. With happiness and excitement, I opened the mail and all my joys turned into gloom and I became numb; the words reverberating in my ears…. Sorry; we have not selected you. Now, I was all lost, an empty feeling crept inside me, and tears started rolling down my eyes. The only thought my brain could come up with was…. You are not good enough. Today, I am standi...

‘United we stand and divide we fall’ ; over the years, I have heard this expression being applied a lot. I was introduced to it when I was in school and we were taking part in a sports event, later in college, someone stood up to make a speech for student body president and hence; used the phrase. They served me this phrase while at work; where my manager motivated our groups on deadlines; with it. To be honest, every time I have used the phrase it inspired me; but still, the extent of it never echoed with my thoughts and being. It was practically like hollow words which just lingered for a while in mind and never owned a bigger place in my daily life. As I moved on with life; this phrase resurfaced with more strength and occupied an enormous part of my thoughts, perceptions, and actions. It was the time when Covid-19 sneaked in the countries and nations dropped like a stack of dominos. Lives were affected and stories became more heartbreaking and everything just seemed ve...

Let’s have a conversation, A conversation between two; You tell me your issues; I tell you my blues. You state the obvious; I describe the fantasy. You shake me up; While I loose emotionally. You put forth my achievement; When I am losing hope. You carry the burden; While I overthink some more. You appreciate my strength; While I compare with someone new. You jot down the success; When I gloat the losses I had through. You pick me up in darkness; When I fall apart. You love me more; While I seek it somewhere far. Let’s have a conversation, A conversation between two; It has been a while; Since, I had a tête-à-tête, a tête-à-tête with Amu. Amita(Amu)

See-saw is interesting. The minute you move up, the air feels so delightful on your face; you feel exhilarated. The moment you move down you feel the surge to thrust harder and reach higher. It was an entertaining activity for me whenever I went to the playground. I indeed love it to date. It was a game of balance and also the one where you supported while the other person went up. Life, as we perceive, is a replica for the same. The problem arises when we don’t look at it that way. Whenever we put efforts to achieve something the thrill and the bliss the peak gives us is admirable. We feel at the top of the world and overlook the encouragement of those who help us attain that position. Then in life comes a point when we are at our lowest low, but instead of pushing hard to reach the top again, we gloat. We criticize our ‘ Kismet ’, our stars, our surroundings, and everything else except us. We just give up by trying once or twice.  What happens to us wh...

Numbers, numbers on the wall; Tell me the one which is best of all; Life has become mere numbers, you are not defined by your knowledge, your street smartness or your humor. You are judged by your weight, height, years of experience and so far so forth. We have lost our ability to admire beauty as we keep on loosing ourselves in numbers. We feel happy when we see our Instagram followers; while sitting all alone in a room. We feel successful to have retweets; while we are unable to make a decent living. Our friend lists are long on Facebook; while we get therapy for feeling lonely or insecure. We even flaunt our numbers with pride; while we have no one to celebrate with. Photographs are clicked for likes and not for creating a memory. Our lives have become a box of numbers that we keep on sharing. Numbers are what matters in every sphere of life. Education and intelligence are kept on the same perimeter of numbers; the burden of which is so heavy that people are...

Since time immemorial I have been taught to keep other people's feelings first, be empathetic, be caring and above all help everyone. Now, this is a good thing to teach kids. A value of kindness goes a long way. Humanity should be the first lesson taught and one must be humble and considerate. The thought per se is beautiful and it creates a peaceful environment around us. The problem lies when we are not told the line or the threshold to stop. We are taught to be caring and understanding but never taught how much care is healthy for you. We must be made aware of the difference between help and being used. We are taught to be empathetic, but when do we have a conversation that says that you should not over involve yourself. An extreme emotional investment makes us weak decision-makers and also affects our mental health. We are taught to be humble and kind, but where is the talk about standing up for ourselves. In this cutthroat environment, one must be equipped ...

On with it So, I have started writing blogs again. To challenge myself I have taken part in the #AtoZchallenge. It was a skeptical decision for me and the one I was avoiding to take for a very long time. But; alas I jumped on the wagon; to test myself and to learn and adapt. I have been somewhat on time. I started again with the intent to explore the idea of expressing through my blogs. To be frank I have not been able to have as many readers as I hoped to get. I have posted at every platform as I know of; I have been interacting and doing as much as I can to nurture this baby of mine, but it seems all in vain. I do appreciate wholeheartedly; all those people who genuinely take time out of their life and read my blog. But; being a human being; the tendency to have more, to instantly succeed gets the best of me. I thought of not going ahead with it, complained to myself, scolding myself for not being enough and overall belittled myself. Now it was fun while the scold...

Keep Calm and Carry on So today as we all know the Lockdown was extended. So we all are in this for a long haul. We were all prepared for this, but somewhere in the back of our mind we were hoping this all to be a dream and we were about to wake up in a normal world. It is the need of the hour and I wholeheartedly agree to stay at home. But, things are going to change this time. As much as we love our family and are relaxing at home. It is slowly and steadily make an impact on us. Slowly we are now getting tired of the mundane routines; despite learning, reading cooking and having fun with our family. The craving for meeting people, walking on the road, moving around without fear and doing as we please is getting stronger. During this time, I have realized how many things I take for granted…like being in a park, watching a movie, ability to hang out with friends and simply enjoy life without the fear of something dreadful. Some people have been in such situations ...

Have you met…..YOU? So over the course of time, I have been through various ups and downs. The highest of them has filled me with joy and inflated my ego and the lowest of low has broken and changed me. At some point in time, we all must have seen a motivational speaker, read a motivating or soul searching book or have turned towards an advisor for help. There are umpteen reasons for that… Maybe we were lost and wanted to know the path     Maybe we knew the answer but needed assurance    Maybe be had hope for betterment  or   Simple peer pressure. Whatever the reasons maybe when we turned towards these means; the most common thing I came across was…Find the real you, befriend it and become a better self. But, as beautiful as it sounds it might not always be true, or rather agreeable. Over a period of time, we have changed, adapted and grown just to fit in society or to be able to make our place in it. There are people who actually...

Cup is half full or is it half empty So, with Dalgona coffee flooding our feed. Recipes and videos being shared left, right and center and friendships made or broken on the thickness of froth. I wonder what we see with it….I mean is it a cup filled with coffee or the empty part left by milk is filled with coffee. Now that is a thing to truly ponder. As we all have ample of time in our hands to tag each other in challenges. Time to read that dusty books, time to clean the wardrobe or overall time to unwind and catch up with things we always neglected due to time. Let me throw in my two cents and decide once and for all whether the cup is half full or is it half empty. Now over the time, I have got many answers like if you are an optimist it is half filled, a pessimist, on the other hand, sees it half empty and an opportunist will fill the space. So clearly we can find our personalities by just pointing out the situation. Fair enough; how you see a situation can j...

Recently, we all have been packed with loads of events. We celebrated women’s day, witnessed people power through election results and then completed it with bright and happy colors on Holi. I came across many words during this time period some of them being equality, empowerment, peace, togetherness, humanity, trustworthiness et cetera. The emotions portrayed were beautiful, the messages spread were a delight to grasp and read. But, what bugged me most was that no one talked in depth about the underlying factor of all…RESPECT. Many a times we come across people online, dissing each other, swearing, spreading negativity about people they might not even know in reality. Then there are people around us talking in a foul and disrespectful language with people they assume to be below them. In the end, It is US….we are sometimes the people behind the computer or the person behaving badly with others or simply disrespecting our own self. What we need to understand is that...