Random Thoughts

With each passing day, I picked up a new thing. With each passing blog I discovered new strengths. With each set of problems, I discovered an innovative solution With each opinion and view, I found my space. The tears, toil, and exhaustion all were rewarded,  It was amazing while it lasted. So the challenge is roughly over and I am on ‘W’, concerned about the other alphabets that follow. Thoughts jumbling up, unable to type, and yet delighted to be going on. I am happy that I challenged myself. I always assumed it was a momentous task to accomplish. I always ran away from it and now as it is ending, it seems like a long vacation with a friend is coming to an end.  I forced myself off my comfort zone each day aiming to do better. The impulse to write kept me up at night. I fought many personal battles to do it. But the confidence it has brought is immeasurable  With each blog, I found a fresh way to express myself....

See-saw is interesting. The minute you move up, the air feels so delightful on your face; you feel exhilarated. The moment you move down you feel the surge to thrust harder and reach higher. It was an entertaining activity for me whenever I went to the playground. I indeed love it to date. It was a game of balance and also the one where you supported while the other person went up. Life, as we perceive, is a replica for the same. The problem arises when we don’t look at it that way. Whenever we put efforts to achieve something the thrill and the bliss the peak gives us is admirable. We feel at the top of the world and overlook the encouragement of those who help us attain that position. Then in life comes a point when we are at our lowest low, but instead of pushing hard to reach the top again, we gloat. We criticize our ‘ Kismet ’, our stars, our surroundings, and everything else except us. We just give up by trying once or twice.  What happens to us wh...

Why do I shy, when I have to cry? Why do I fear; when people are near? Why am I trembling; when I see the one I love? Why is there no respites; only tears I have longed for happiness for a while; I have learned to steal smiles at times The darkness has been profound; But my heart always got some respite When he went out; in a few hours I lived my life Then came the pandemic; which tore me apart Virus or beating my fate was written in dark I cried and shouted all in vain His frustrations were all to blame. Don’t get me wrong he loved me too, When he kissed my eyes he bruised. Now I am not sure will I survive? But, I know for sure I don’t want to live this life. With the lockdown, we all might be happy to be safe at our respective homes but for some, it is the nightmare each day. The cases of domestic violence have risen since the lockdown and abuses against children are on the rise too. The dilemma for...

NOTHING What are you searching for…..? A story; poetry or a plain simple Blog. Believe me, there is nothing. This is the human tendency; we search for things even if there are none. We look for problems; even in nothing. We search for answers for non-existence question, and We press the button which has a “Do Not Touch” sign on it. We search for humanity; in people that have none. We stay in a relationship where we find nothing. We look for happiness; in places there is none. When we are asked to stay, we want to move. When we are asked to move; we want a break. Why do we always have to go in the other direction? What is the kick in breaking rules? What does one get after being disappointed in search of nothing? Why do we expect to be rewarded by the emptiness?  Being rebellious and being foolish has a very thin line, and many times we cross it in search of nothing. So stop searching for nothing; relax; chill, enjoy and appreciate everythi...

My Random Conversation It Began at the beach; where life was gushed with emotions. I just went ahead and sat with a friend; discussing and feeling the warmth of the waves at our feet. M : “What do you think; is the reason for the sudden change in the weather,”; I asked randomly. With her eyes fixed on the changing colors of the sky; she deliberated for a moment and said L : “Maybe; it is a sign of change” I laughed at her silly reply. I mean we all know it is a sign of change; what I wanted it to be an answer and not a silly reply… She suddenly looked at me and smiled; L : “Yes, it seems a silly answer; but are you aware of the depth of the problem?” she questioned Suddenly I stopped laughing and turned with inquisitive eyes towards her. L : “See there is a time when things are balanced”; she began “We are using things judiciously, we are kind to every spice around us and that is the time we co-exist” M : “Yes”; I quipped rather ...

Have you met…..YOU? So over the course of time, I have been through various ups and downs. The highest of them has filled me with joy and inflated my ego and the lowest of low has broken and changed me. At some point in time, we all must have seen a motivational speaker, read a motivating or soul searching book or have turned towards an advisor for help. There are umpteen reasons for that… Maybe we were lost and wanted to know the path     Maybe we knew the answer but needed assurance    Maybe be had hope for betterment  or   Simple peer pressure. Whatever the reasons maybe when we turned towards these means; the most common thing I came across was…Find the real you, befriend it and become a better self. But, as beautiful as it sounds it might not always be true, or rather agreeable. Over a period of time, we have changed, adapted and grown just to fit in society or to be able to make our place in it. There are people who actually...