Random Thoughts

See-saw is interesting. The minute you move up, the air feels so delightful on your face; you feel exhilarated. The moment you move down you feel the surge to thrust harder and reach higher. It was an entertaining activity for me whenever I went to the playground. I indeed love it to date. It was a game of balance and also the one where you supported while the other person went up. Life, as we perceive, is a replica for the same. The problem arises when we don’t look at it that way. Whenever we put efforts to achieve something the thrill and the bliss the peak gives us is admirable. We feel at the top of the world and overlook the encouragement of those who help us attain that position. Then in life comes a point when we are at our lowest low, but instead of pushing hard to reach the top again, we gloat. We criticize our ‘ Kismet ’, our stars, our surroundings, and everything else except us. We just give up by trying once or twice.  What happens to us wh...

Why do I shy, when I have to cry? Why do I fear; when people are near? Why am I trembling; when I see the one I love? Why is there no respites; only tears I have longed for happiness for a while; I have learned to steal smiles at times The darkness has been profound; But my heart always got some respite When he went out; in a few hours I lived my life Then came the pandemic; which tore me apart Virus or beating my fate was written in dark I cried and shouted all in vain His frustrations were all to blame. Don’t get me wrong he loved me too, When he kissed my eyes he bruised. Now I am not sure will I survive? But, I know for sure I don’t want to live this life. With the lockdown, we all might be happy to be safe at our respective homes but for some, it is the nightmare each day. The cases of domestic violence have risen since the lockdown and abuses against children are on the rise too. The dilemma for...

NOTHING What are you searching for…..? A story; poetry or a plain simple Blog. Believe me, there is nothing. This is the human tendency; we search for things even if there are none. We look for problems; even in nothing. We search for answers for non-existence question, and We press the button which has a “Do Not Touch” sign on it. We search for humanity; in people that have none. We stay in a relationship where we find nothing. We look for happiness; in places there is none. When we are asked to stay, we want to move. When we are asked to move; we want a break. Why do we always have to go in the other direction? What is the kick in breaking rules? What does one get after being disappointed in search of nothing? Why do we expect to be rewarded by the emptiness?  Being rebellious and being foolish has a very thin line, and many times we cross it in search of nothing. So stop searching for nothing; relax; chill, enjoy and appreciate everythi...

My Random Conversation It Began at the beach; where life was gushed with emotions. I just went ahead and sat with a friend; discussing and feeling the warmth of the waves at our feet. M : “What do you think; is the reason for the sudden change in the weather,”; I asked randomly. With her eyes fixed on the changing colors of the sky; she deliberated for a moment and said L : “Maybe; it is a sign of change” I laughed at her silly reply. I mean we all know it is a sign of change; what I wanted it to be an answer and not a silly reply… She suddenly looked at me and smiled; L : “Yes, it seems a silly answer; but are you aware of the depth of the problem?” she questioned Suddenly I stopped laughing and turned with inquisitive eyes towards her. L : “See there is a time when things are balanced”; she began “We are using things judiciously, we are kind to every spice around us and that is the time we co-exist” M : “Yes”; I quipped rather ...

GIVE TIME..... Lost in my thoughts, I grew With reality moving away I relived my past and hurt my wound My mind said….     Just Give time Stuck in a place No future to look I fell deep thinking over My heart said      Just Give time Happy with joy, Finding my place a new I cried with fear of the unknown A friendly smile said     Just Give time Rejected and refused Lost hope too soon Thought of killing the pain My hobby said      Just Give time Beaming with joy A new life in my womb Suddenly the heartbeats stopped The support group said      Just Give time Surrounded by perfection Living up to society scales Just got sacked Familiar faces said    Just give time Lost all money Lost all hope A beaming child at the traffic light said    Just Give time Laws changed and my heart elated Happily held my loved...

Dear Diary… So, it has been infinite days of lockdown. We all are struggling hard to stay in. Never felt that silly walks on roads, coffee with a friend, and work with the colleagues or a mere sense of going out has been taken for granted by me for so long. Now I am at home blessed to have shelter, food, running water and electricity at these trying times. But, believe me, it is challenging to keep my mental state intact. It is difficult to feel happiness and positivity when we are surrounded by fear and uncertainty. It is a difficult time for people with health issues, but it is more taxing for those who have mental health issues. People are having bouts of anxiety, a normal person is feeling lonely or depressed, sadness has engulfed many people, and I think it is a bigger virus than Corona itself. Amid all these people are trying to make things light and happy by creating happy content, having fun challenges and giving ideas to survive this. It is so good to see peop...