Random Thoughts

With each passing day, I picked up a new thing. With each passing blog I discovered new strengths. With each set of problems, I discovered an innovative solution With each opinion and view, I found my space. The tears, toil, and exhaustion all were rewarded,  It was amazing while it lasted. So the challenge is roughly over and I am on ‘W’, concerned about the other alphabets that follow. Thoughts jumbling up, unable to type, and yet delighted to be going on. I am happy that I challenged myself. I always assumed it was a momentous task to accomplish. I always ran away from it and now as it is ending, it seems like a long vacation with a friend is coming to an end.  I forced myself off my comfort zone each day aiming to do better. The impulse to write kept me up at night. I fought many personal battles to do it. But the confidence it has brought is immeasurable  With each blog, I found a fresh way to express myself....

With eager eyes, I glanced at the doorway. I was expecting a piece of good news in the mail. Maybe the postman got delayed. I looked at the clock and started pacing. Looking at the gate now and again. Suddenly, the bell rang…. I jumped in excitement as I rushed to open the door. It was like a K3G movie scene. Now I know how Jaya Bachchan ma’am must have felt when Rahul a. k. a. Shahrukh Khan came home. Anyway, I opened the gate and was overjoyed to receive the letter. The letter I was expecting since I dreamed of getting into this field. Proof that I have accomplished my dreams and my hard work has paid off. With happiness and excitement, I opened the mail and all my joys turned into gloom and I became numb; the words reverberating in my ears…. Sorry; we have not selected you. Now, I was all lost, an empty feeling crept inside me, and tears started rolling down my eyes. The only thought my brain could come up with was…. You are not good enough. Today, I am standi...

‘United we stand and divide we fall’ ; over the years, I have heard this expression being applied a lot. I was introduced to it when I was in school and we were taking part in a sports event, later in college, someone stood up to make a speech for student body president and hence; used the phrase. They served me this phrase while at work; where my manager motivated our groups on deadlines; with it. To be honest, every time I have used the phrase it inspired me; but still, the extent of it never echoed with my thoughts and being. It was practically like hollow words which just lingered for a while in mind and never owned a bigger place in my daily life. As I moved on with life; this phrase resurfaced with more strength and occupied an enormous part of my thoughts, perceptions, and actions. It was the time when Covid-19 sneaked in the countries and nations dropped like a stack of dominos. Lives were affected and stories became more heartbreaking and everything just seemed ve...

NOTHING What are you searching for…..? A story; poetry or a plain simple Blog. Believe me, there is nothing. This is the human tendency; we search for things even if there are none. We look for problems; even in nothing. We search for answers for non-existence question, and We press the button which has a “Do Not Touch” sign on it. We search for humanity; in people that have none. We stay in a relationship where we find nothing. We look for happiness; in places there is none. When we are asked to stay, we want to move. When we are asked to move; we want a break. Why do we always have to go in the other direction? What is the kick in breaking rules? What does one get after being disappointed in search of nothing? Why do we expect to be rewarded by the emptiness?  Being rebellious and being foolish has a very thin line, and many times we cross it in search of nothing. So stop searching for nothing; relax; chill, enjoy and appreciate everythi...

Life Happened When I first opened my eyes, the world was full of opportunities  Then I grew up…. as life happened When I first took my step, learned to stand I fell more… as life happened When I threw tantrums, they pampered me Now, I am doing the same…. as life happened I learned my ABC’s and read them out loud Now words became cautious…. as life happened When the time was endless and our talks never ended It turned to hmm and okay…  as life happened When we eat our heart out and food brought happiness Now food is mere calories…. as life happened When 2 Rs. made us feel like royalty as we splurge on it Now we slog each day and still never have enough…. as life happened When crushes were fun as we made fun of each other With every heartbreak; we became emptier… as life happened When walking was fun and roads never ended  We now are stuck… as life happened Growing up was always the aim, and it seemed fun Craving to be a child ...

Keep Calm and Carry on So today as we all know the Lockdown was extended. So we all are in this for a long haul. We were all prepared for this, but somewhere in the back of our mind we were hoping this all to be a dream and we were about to wake up in a normal world. It is the need of the hour and I wholeheartedly agree to stay at home. But, things are going to change this time. As much as we love our family and are relaxing at home. It is slowly and steadily make an impact on us. Slowly we are now getting tired of the mundane routines; despite learning, reading cooking and having fun with our family. The craving for meeting people, walking on the road, moving around without fear and doing as we please is getting stronger. During this time, I have realized how many things I take for granted…like being in a park, watching a movie, ability to hang out with friends and simply enjoy life without the fear of something dreadful. Some people have been in such situations ...

Era of Distances When I initially thought about the topic the world was different. I wanted to have a take on growing distances among people while we upgrade ourselves with technology shrinking the world. But, then we started learning and implementing a new word ‘social distancing’ . Now things changed completely. We were in a state where we came closer to our loved ones while distancing ourselves from the mundane race of life. I always use to wonder that with our lives becoming more virtual; we were somehow losing our touch with reality.    We were always looking forward to making our socials beautiful, without giving much thought to our life.    We were running to keep up with the standards set up by our surroundings. We were losing the sense of self while creating a false image for the world.  But , as boring, taxing or hard it seems social distancing changed the dynamics of our lives. We were forced to restrict our mom...

Dear Diary… So, it has been infinite days of lockdown. We all are struggling hard to stay in. Never felt that silly walks on roads, coffee with a friend, and work with the colleagues or a mere sense of going out has been taken for granted by me for so long. Now I am at home blessed to have shelter, food, running water and electricity at these trying times. But, believe me, it is challenging to keep my mental state intact. It is difficult to feel happiness and positivity when we are surrounded by fear and uncertainty. It is a difficult time for people with health issues, but it is more taxing for those who have mental health issues. People are having bouts of anxiety, a normal person is feeling lonely or depressed, sadness has engulfed many people, and I think it is a bigger virus than Corona itself. Amid all these people are trying to make things light and happy by creating happy content, having fun challenges and giving ideas to survive this. It is so good to see peop...

Bring your own Blessings (BYOB) Let us begin day two of the challenge with the letter ‘B’. I have been thinking a lot about the topic for this one and after many cancellations finalized the above. Now we are mostly aware of BYOB an urbanized version of going Dutch or rather getting your own drinks to the party. This is basically a system of sharing expenses and also giving the sense of being a part of the party. Okay, just kidding it is none of the aforementioned and is the basic way of partying when everyone is practically broke. So, moving on from parties and hangouts. Oh, the nostalgia ! Just like we can share the burden so that we can enjoy a party of a hangout, we can share the burden of sadness and negativity by simply bringing our blessings with us. Blessings are a beacon of hope in the vast ocean of negativity. They are prayers of a better future, a way to assure someone that ‘this too shall pass’ Now, the question is how we can bring our own bl...