Random Thoughts

With each passing day, I picked up a new thing. With each passing blog I discovered new strengths. With each set of problems, I discovered an innovative solution With each opinion and view, I found my space. The tears, toil, and exhaustion all were rewarded,  It was amazing while it lasted. So the challenge is roughly over and I am on ‘W’, concerned about the other alphabets that follow. Thoughts jumbling up, unable to type, and yet delighted to be going on. I am happy that I challenged myself. I always assumed it was a momentous task to accomplish. I always ran away from it and now as it is ending, it seems like a long vacation with a friend is coming to an end.  I forced myself off my comfort zone each day aiming to do better. The impulse to write kept me up at night. I fought many personal battles to do it. But the confidence it has brought is immeasurable  With each blog, I found a fresh way to express myself....

Why do I shy, when I have to cry? Why do I fear; when people are near? Why am I trembling; when I see the one I love? Why is there no respites; only tears I have longed for happiness for a while; I have learned to steal smiles at times The darkness has been profound; But my heart always got some respite When he went out; in a few hours I lived my life Then came the pandemic; which tore me apart Virus or beating my fate was written in dark I cried and shouted all in vain His frustrations were all to blame. Don’t get me wrong he loved me too, When he kissed my eyes he bruised. Now I am not sure will I survive? But, I know for sure I don’t want to live this life. With the lockdown, we all might be happy to be safe at our respective homes but for some, it is the nightmare each day. The cases of domestic violence have risen since the lockdown and abuses against children are on the rise too. The dilemma for...

Have you met…..YOU? So over the course of time, I have been through various ups and downs. The highest of them has filled me with joy and inflated my ego and the lowest of low has broken and changed me. At some point in time, we all must have seen a motivational speaker, read a motivating or soul searching book or have turned towards an advisor for help. There are umpteen reasons for that… Maybe we were lost and wanted to know the path     Maybe we knew the answer but needed assurance    Maybe be had hope for betterment  or   Simple peer pressure. Whatever the reasons maybe when we turned towards these means; the most common thing I came across was…Find the real you, befriend it and become a better self. But, as beautiful as it sounds it might not always be true, or rather agreeable. Over a period of time, we have changed, adapted and grown just to fit in society or to be able to make our place in it. There are people who actually...

Dear Diary… So, it has been infinite days of lockdown. We all are struggling hard to stay in. Never felt that silly walks on roads, coffee with a friend, and work with the colleagues or a mere sense of going out has been taken for granted by me for so long. Now I am at home blessed to have shelter, food, running water and electricity at these trying times. But, believe me, it is challenging to keep my mental state intact. It is difficult to feel happiness and positivity when we are surrounded by fear and uncertainty. It is a difficult time for people with health issues, but it is more taxing for those who have mental health issues. People are having bouts of anxiety, a normal person is feeling lonely or depressed, sadness has engulfed many people, and I think it is a bigger virus than Corona itself. Amid all these people are trying to make things light and happy by creating happy content, having fun challenges and giving ideas to survive this. It is so good to see peop...